In conversation with Freddy Martinez
A Delicate Study of Time
Freddy Martinez: Does the camera allow you to cherish time more or allow you to see more of what is lost?
Pam Connolly: Children are markers of time. They are perpetually changing and becoming more of who they are every day, particularly when they are very young. Many people say, “they grow up so quickly; it goes by so fast,” and in a way I can agree with that, but I also experienced time in relationship to the raising of my daughters as moving quite slowly. Particularly when they were little, a day or even a morning seemed to go on indefinitely.
This project began the summer before my youngest daughter left for college. It seemed like a momentous point in her life and mine, worthy of recording. A photographer and mentor suggested that I photograph her throughout this transition. “They change so quickly once they leave.” I began photographing her and her two sisters during their frequent visits home over the next two years.
Photographing my daughters at this juncture, as they leave the nest, is a way for me to cherish them as they begin to make their way out into the world without me. It’s a last look while they are still mine. They are on the cusp and I want to remember right now. By capturing that essence in a photograph, the moment is saved and never lost.
FM: How would you describe their absence in your home?
PC: I was not prepared for how quiet and empty our house would feel without the daily presence of kids. It was jarring to return at the end of the day to a dark house where there was no one waiting. Beyond that, the house itself looked very different without the clutter of teenagers. The light moved through the rooms unobstructed and gave the spaces a distinctly different look. I was in unfamiliar territory.
Full interview in Issue Three, which you can purchase here.